Hello!!! After not posting so long, now i'm back :) I want to vent about the most precious person in my life but now he left me alone in this cruel world. want to catch him but who knows when, only Allah SWT knows. He's my grandpa, my best friend, my hero, like my father already. the first person who taught me about prayer, the person who taught me to read Al-Qur'an, people who are always there for me when any of my unborn child on earth until he died, those who best understand me even than my parents. THE BEST GRANDPA IN THE WORLD!!! *wanna cry*
This is my grandpa :
me with my grandpa :
since childhood, I lived with him & my grandmother, so theyalready like my parents because they always give me milk or clothes. yes, they are! those who drove me to school, they'vereally like my parents. Now they are both already left me.seriously, I felt really devastated, fragile without them both. Mygrandmother died on 5 February 2005 when I was a school in Makassar. they left me when I'm not there beside them, I was out of town. At that time I was brave because I still have my grandfather. but now? whether I could still strong as before?grandfather also already left me.Thursday, 3 November 2011 at 8 pm, my mother called and give us the worst news I ever heard. my grandpa died, & before he died he had asked me. it seems want to run at full speed and shouted "DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE!!! :( " but i cann't. distance we are separated by mountains and the ocean doesn't allow for me to do all that. A day earlier there is already a bad feeling that one wants to die because there's a black cat who came to me and always see me, I drove the cat but the cat would not go. I didn't think that it is a sign that my grandpa would die. I was hoping it was just a dream. my brother was busy looking for tickets to Ambon & since I lived in Malang, if u want flight to Ambon must depart from Juanda Airport, Surabaya. flight from Surabaya to Ambon at 7 a.m. I wish I had a helicopter: ( I went packing, cann't sleep because I'm always thinking about my grandpa. so remember the days when he still lived together. when Eid , I want to say goodbye right going back to Malang, my grandpa a little finicky. always ask when I returned to Ambon again, to get home again, etc.. turns out it was my last meeting with my grandpa :(At 4 am, I went to Surabaya alone, 7 a.m flight to Ambon. arrived in Ambon at 12 p.m. my mom kept calling me. because it was the day Friday, so his remains should be buried after Friday prayers. journey from the airport to Morella (my village) takes about 1 hour. so panic, fear didn't get to see the grandpa's body, and exactly what I feared. I arrived at Morella, I went straight to where my grandpa was buried. when arriving at the cemetery, grandpa already buried & again recited the closing prayer.aahhhhh: ( I'm not lucky anymore.Real! it's real. and I must accept this reality. live the rest of my life without him. grandfather had been talking to me "if niny already working, my grandfather wanted to stay with you". but: (when I have not worked, leaving my grandfather already. OHH GOD, I MISS HIM SO BADLY :( for my dearest grandpa in heaven, hopefully grandpa happy in heaven, my prayers are always with u and grandma. wait for me there. now i'll stick to live this life with a fake smile as though my heart is fragile. keep spirit niny, I believe my grandpa & grandma always give me a hug from heaven :)
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